Its another day

and things are still the same...
but then again, maybe a little better?

I went and talked to my ex boss for a minute today b/c he found our about what was going on... He wanted me to stay.... but said he understands why I want to leave. He told me to go talk to my new boss (the guy who took his position...) becuase he needs to know what is going on... and how they are acting... he said he was really sorry that I felt like I needed to leave... but that there are more important things than work and that I need to be with someone who understands that I have a Special Needs child and I will have to miss work sometimes to take care of some of the appointments that come along with SMA...

So I am now debating on going to talk to my new section head... I asked him this afternoon if we could talk tomorrow... but I'm not really sure what he could do for me... He could transfer me to a different group in our section... but the other group has been loosing lots of employees lately because they don't like the way they are being treated... I'm not sure I want to move to another group like that...

So now I am waiting.... just waiting... .yay.... I've got to try and find a new job... I'll keep you posted on that...





As for us...
Tomorrow is Halloween... We are bringing Austin Trick or Treating in Mike's parent's neighborhood...
I was telling Austin about it, trying to explain it to him, and he tells me "But mommy, I got plenty plentycandy at my house"
so he's not really interested about tomorrow...
but I will have some pictures anyway... : )
I'm excited !!!!!

Then its the weekend!!! YAY!?

I'm off to get together his stuff for tomorrow...

another day

Well, its another day...
And although I am still not happy with work, I am feeling better today... I am not sure if its just tired of crying, or if maybe I really am ok with the idea of leaving (once I find another job)... or if its just nice to know that some people agree with me... or that my section head (or ex section head - its complicated...) doesn't want to loose me...

I've decided that even though I am feeling better, I am not letting it go... I've ignored similar issues in the past, and they just keep coming right back... all the same things.... I'm not going to let it go this time... I'm going to do something about it... even if that means leaving...

I have to many other things to worry about with out having to be worried about whether or not I'm going to get chewed out everytime I need to take some time off to care for my child... or anything else that might come up...

Fact is they couldn't really deny any of my leave requests for Austin b/c that would violate the Family Medical Leave Act... and I know that... but they fail to see how it would... Fact is, I have a special needs child... and by law I am entitled to 12 weeks a year to take time off to bring him to get any type of medical care he needs...

And then, besides that ... I have a Special Needs Child... I need to be in a place that understands that there will be times that I will have to miss and take off to deal with things that come up.... I can not be in a place where I have to stress about their reaction... Being in this place with my child can be stressful enough...

I can't keep a job that is affecting my home life... I need to be able to be here for my son... I can't be this miserable and take care of my child as well as he deserves to be taken care of...

So for myself and my family... I am going to try my hardest to find a new job... It will probably just be a transfer... whether in or out of the section I am in.... Just away from my boss...

Thanks for listening/reading all about my rough time....
Hopefully the end is near...

its just getting bad...

I think I am starting to get depressed... and it all steams back to work...
I hate that I have let things get to me this bad...
I wish that I could just let it roll off my shoulders...
but I can't...
and its getting bad...

Today I got chewed out because someone in the district didn't do their job... so that's my fault how????
Oh, becuase I didn't call them everyday for the last year to get a copy of it...
Seriously...

I didn't even know that this was an issue...
I have probably like 20 contracts a week pass over my desk...
and once our end is finished they go in temperary files where they sit until we get work orders...
My lead worker and I go through this when we don't have anything to do to try and find the old ones that should have work orders... but I by no means have time to do this everyday... not even every week... between the two of us, it tends to get done once a month... sometimes every two months... and that's with two people waiting for spare time to do it.

Its not like I sit around with my thumbs up my ass... I stay busy...I work basically from the time I get there until I leave...
Now the people I work with...

one goes to coffee and around 7ish... and gets back around 7:45ish... then goes for breakfast around 9ish and is gone until about 10... then at 11 they either leave for lunch or start warming their lunch (or fixing it) ... and they don't get back to their desk until like 1:30 then at 2:30 its coffee time agan.. .and that lasts until like 3
and on some days this person sleeps... or sits at their desk, and ignores everyone and I get stuck doing their work... which sometimes puts me a little behind...

And my boss... he is almost never at his desk... he's usually down the hall talking person... nothing work related comes out of his mouth ...excepts for what he is fussing at me about what i don't do... except that I am doing the things he is saying I don't.. .and when I tell him that I don't have time to do the things he is request (such as checking DAILY for this issue that came up today) he tells me that I am lieing...

He told me he doesn't care who I talk to once all my work is done. Ok, so now what??? I am by law entitled to TWO 15 minute breaks a day... and a 30 minute lunch... I NEVER take my whole 15min breaks... NEVER so who cares if I talk casually with a coworker as I pass them in the hall? Who the hell has the right to say that I can't talk to people?!?!?!?

I am so beyond pissed...
Then of ocurse mymotherinlaw found out that what was going on, and she works with my former boss(big boss.. the section head) now. So she went to him to find out about my boss. He says that he is still technically over my section and doesnt want me to transfer out... He had told me in the past that he wouldn't approve a transfer b/c I was too important to the section.
But he said maybe he would move me to a different group in the section. I need to go talk to him... This is all getting to be too much for me... I can't live like this...

I've gained some weight... and been snacking a lot... and this week I haven't had much of an apetite.. I reall dread going to work in the morning... I just don't want to deal with his shit...

Sorry this is so long... I just needed to vent a little...

a quick update

Ok, so I got the picture post out of the way... ;) now I can post a quick update before I head off to bed...

Things have been really busy, and insanely stressful lately...

Thankfully Austin is feeling better, and judging by the way his clothes are fitting him, he has gained back all of the weight he lost, if not a little more....

He is still getting stronger everyday... I just can't believe it...He still amazes me with the new things he is doing...

We went to see the house last Friday night... Its looking amazing... I have a few pics, but I'm not posting them... mainly because I am too tired... and honestly, it isn't much to look at... it *looks* just like it did last time we went...

They have started the stucco work on the front of the house... and other than that, the only change is the electrical and plumbing that had been ran...oh and they widened a door, that they forgot to widen in the begining...AND they put in both tubs and the hot water heater... of course, i guess that could be included with the "plumbing" lol

ok ok, you win, here's a picture of the begining of the stucco work... ;)

I threw in tub pictures as a bonus

WE talked to Debbie today, she said that we are probably looking at a mid December date... which is nice, but makes me nervous... basically the house is going to be ready around December 12-22 of this year... so basically that means moving in at Christmas... blah... I'm hoping that they manage to get done a little early... The should start the Dry-Wall next week... This week (at least most of it) will be spent waiting on Inspectors to come by and inspect the work... Depending on when (and if ) they pass (i'm sure they will) depends on when it will be completed... so now we are just waiting....

yay...

anyway, I guess that's about it!

Two picture posts in one night... CRAZY...

ACTUALLY three picture post in ONE day... CRAZIER!!!!

Good night.. I hope you have sweet dreams in paradise!

Boo at the Zoo Pics

Ok, so Boo at the Zoo was Sunday...
Here are some pictures...
They aren't really in order, photobucket kind of screws up the order of them... IDK why...

ENJOY!!!
Let me know if want the originals to print!!!
:D

****EDITED*****

Ok, For some reason it isn't showing the whole picture, but if you click on it, it opens up a bigger full version of the picture.

just loaded these

here are a couple of pics from austin's hospital stay...
They are the only ones I took... and not great quality because they are from my cell phone... but here they are

its over...finally...

Its finally Friday night!
Thank god!!

This week really sucked... I just couldn't seem to get out of my funk... It could be that my boss was a complete ass about my kid being sick and in the HOSPITAL!!!!!!!! but who knows really...

There is a possibility that I could have an opportunity to leave my section and move to another one... It would be the same pay... same job title... but different work...

I'm an Engineer Technician... but my work is just clerical stuff... I write and send out letters... The most "technical" stuff I do is entering information to the computer system... this new possible job would be more engineering stuff... which I think I might like... but I just don't know...

Boo at the Zoo is this weekend... so you know I will have some new pics soon.

We went to the house today...
Its coming along really fast!
They ahve the plumbing and the electrical ran...
and the Stucco has been started!
I took some pics, i'll post them soon.

I guess that is about it for now.

fed up

I am just sick and tired and fed up with my job. Not even my job, more like my boss...

My kid has been in the hospital... Its not my fault... and if you think that I am not going to be with him, you can just kiss my fat ass...

I went back to work yesterday...My boss wasn't there...
he took the day off...
so, this morning, I got there, and brought him my leave slip for today... I needed to leave early to bring Austin to his follow up appointment.

He didn't want to sign... told me that I have been taking off too much...
I had talked to his boss yesterday about needing to leave early... he said it was fine...so I didn't understand.

He just went on and on about how I was taking too much time off... I explained, that I had 80 hours of annual before last week and almost 60 of sick leave... I took 32 annual and 8 sick last week... so I still had 5 of each... i didn't see the problem with needing to leave for 3.5 hours today...

He told me that I really needed to be careful and watch my leave... I told him I was... and that I wasn't worried about it, because I never take off... he replies with "you just took a whole week off" yeah, my kid was in the hospital... that's what we are discussing...

He went on to tell me not to bother asking for any time off when we move, or for the holidays, because it just won't be possible... WTF?!?!?!?!?!?!

I earn 3.6 hours of leave EVERY two weeks... so I still have 50 of annual and I am going to continue to earn... I don't get what the problem is...

He also told me that I "was just going to have to come in even if you wake up one morning and don't feel like it" I told him I do... I never stay home just becuase I don't feel like coming in... and he just repeats hiself...

I'm sick of it!!!!
I don't get the double standards... at all... everyone else takes off when ever the hell the please... even he did it yesterday... but my kid needs something and I'm the bad guy...

He also told me that i have to change my schedule back to the old schedule b/c that's what he wants... EVERYONE else in our section works the schedule they chose... but he wants to take that from me? which means, I will be using MORE leave to take off for Austin's therapy schedule... The whole point of changing my schedule was so that I wouldn't have to use all my leave... I am the only person in our group that actually has a reason to need to chane their schedule, but I am going to be the one to be forced to work a shitty schedule... and not be available to get my kid to the appointments he needs...

He also explained to me that I needed to clean the stacks off my desk... the only stacks that were on my desk, had been placed there by my lead worker.... they all and notes on them so that I could finish what needed to be finished... I tried explaining this... and he just wouldn't listen... kept repeating hisself... same shit... so what ever... later he came by my desk and started talking about the stacks I needed to clean up... you know what they were??? Stacks of envelopes... seriously... WTF?!?!?! I mail out letters everyday, EVERYDAY!!!! I REFUSE to go to the supply room to get more envelopes everytime I get a letter to send out... so they will stay on my desk... That's insane...

I know that things will get better... I know he was jsut in a pissy mood, but every couple of months he pulls this shit... I want it to stop... I just don't know what to do...

I am going to go through my Employee handbook to see what my rights are, especially concerning my leave.

Sorry this is so long... I just needed to get it out...

Here's Austin's update...
We saw Dr. Wood... he is fine.
He even managed to gain back right over one pound of the weight he lost
(the last weight the doctor had on file was 27.5lbs in July... so he was a little more than that... as of wednesday he was 25lbs even... so he had lost at least 2.5 lbs... if not more)
and he got a flu shot.
We are back to normal!! YAY!!!
I'm so glad that he isn't sick anymore...

anyway, that's enough for tonight...again I'm sorry its so long... ;)

finally home

The doctor called me right around lunch time to see how Austin was doing...
Then he asked if I was ready to go home....
Since we were, he agreed to send the discharge papers in... but he made sure to tell me that he would still have a bit of diarrhea... and that if he showed any sign of dehydrating again to bring him in immeadately...

We got this discharge papers around 3ish and then since Austin was napping we waited until he was awake to leave... We got home around 5ish...

Its so nice to be home....I missed my dogs!
lol

Austin still isn't feeling 100%, so he is pretty clingy right now...
I've noticed that he is falling a little bit more ... Which I know is normal becuase he's been sick... everyone looses strength when they are sick, I just hope it isn't a real set back for him.... he still seems to be going 90mph.... so I think he will be fine...

I just wanted to update everyone about what's going on...

an update (straight from myspace bulletin)

well, its 7 am (about)
We made it through the night IV free...
the did get the culture back from his stool sample...
he has the rotavirus... so of course, it just means that we have to let it just run its course... *sigh* I'm not too thrilled about that.. but what can you do...
I'm even less thrilled that they thought waking us up at midnight was the best time to tell us... *rolls eyes* I mean, if he was dieing from whatever it was ok... but its just a virus.... just like the doctor told us it prob was.... Even if it would have been something bacterial and they needed to start antiboitics... that's ok to wake me up... but to give me some paper explaining what it is...
I would have rather slept... oh well... Its their job... and at least I'm informed...

His diarrhea did stop last night about 8pm... so that was good...I'm hoping that means its clearing up and not that his belly was just empty...
He didn't pee before he went to bed... so I was a little concerned... I was hoping it wasn't a sign of him re-dehydrating....
but he soaked through his sheets ... so looks like he is still hydrated!!!

YAY!

He is still asleep... I thought about trying to sleep a little more, but I just couldn't... so I got on here... before he claims it as his computer... lol
Poor thing is just so bored... he's not allowed out of the room b/c its a virus... and contagious... blahblah...

Anyway, I guess I am going to go... I will update after we see the doctor... hopfully its to say we are going home..... *crosses fingers*

update

Well, we are still here...
Its just about lunch time..
Looks like we will be staying again tonight...

They did just unhook the IV for a while....
to see how he does..
he is drinking so they are thinking he will be ok...

And he is waiting for lunch...
they are moving him to a bland diet...
he got some cheerios for a snack a little while ago...
b/c he was hungry...

he is moving around right now and playing alittle bit...
so I'm thinking he is finaly starting to feel better...

I'll update again later.

Hospital

yep... That's right...
we are in the hospital...
I tried to get on a post last night, but it kept giving me some kind of error about cookies and I tried to fix it, but then when it didn't work i gave up and decided to just get some sleep...

But now its working, so I guess whatever I did just needed to reboot... lol

Anyway, I brought Austin in to see Dr. Wood yesterday morning... and just like I suspected... he was dehydrated...
and we got sent straight to the hospital... Dr. Wood said that he would be probably just need to stay over night... I'm not sure how long we will be here other than that... He still has only peed twice... and they want to do a stool culture... and of course he had an explosive diaper just before we got here... and I didn't know they would need that... so I just changed him before we came in... and now... he hasn't gone again....
I don't know if they will make us wait for that or not...

All in all he is doing really well... he has slept alot since we've ben here...

He does have an IV... but he hasn't tried to pull it out...
It does keeps getting kinked up... and the flow stops... because lets face it.. he's two... two year olds dont just sit still... even when they are connected to something...

Its right after six now, and he is starting to wake up, so I guess I am going to cut this short...

I'll update again when i can...

...still sick....

Austin did so great yesterday...
he didn't throw up... his fever was just about completely gone... (he was like 99-ish.. .and he's always a little warm....)
He played a little bit... still didn't pee much... but you could really tell that he was feeling better...

This morning...
He had a diaper full of watery diarrhea...
I didn't notice of course until I went in to get him ready to leave...
and he's getting warmer...
he still hasn't had many wet diapers... maybe 2... and that's a stretch...
so I'm at home again today...
I've decided I am just going to bring him to the doctor...

I'm even feeling a bit pukey myself... all I can say is if I get it... I hope its today and that I'm better by the weekend...

another video

I just thought it was cute watching Austin with his daddy....

And now

the video...

This took HOURS to load to youtube... so watch!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7JfAowQWsOM

Our Home

Ok, so its been brought to my attention by my loving husband, that I haven't made any posts of the house pictures... Here's a timeline of the construction so far...

Enjoy!!!

The first visit we made once "consruction" began was on September 25th...
the area where the slab would be poured had been framed up, and some of the pipes and things had been layed down.

the begining of the house...
the lake
Mikey in the bathroom
from the living room looking towards the street
The backyard

Our next visit was on October 5th...The only real change that day was that the slab had been poured... YAY!!! but we were really able to judge the size of the yard since there was a clear definition of where the house would stop.

Austin in "his room"
Austin in his room
the view from the street
Austin checking things out
The view from the "backdoor" and the patio

Austin and Mike
Me and Austin in the bathrooms

The whole slab...

Our next (and most recent) visit was on October 11thI lamost died when I saw the progress they had made in such a short period of time!

View from the street

The fireplace

Mikey standing at the island

Master bedroom

The view from the master bedroom

The back of the house

Austin and Daddy playing in his room

Mommy and Austin inb the backyard

I can't wait for it to be finished... we are looking at around 1-2 months... We should be in for Christmas...

Sick Day

Austin was so sick today...
he got dehydrated...
he threw up all day long...
he was running a fever...

it was horrible!

we had a long day, but he's in bed now... and he's sleeping...

hopefully we will have a better day tomorrow.

GEAUX TIGERS

Imagine my surprise when I went outside and found a tiger in my front yard...
At first I was a little scared... but since the Tiger seemed to be friendly I decided to go grab the camera to try and get some pics of him... I mean, how often does a Tiger show up in your front yard??????

So here they are!

Ok, so you got me... Its Austin's halloween costume. :)

What do you think?

I think we did pretty darn good!